Ms. Anonymous

Friday, June 10, 2005


Do you ever feel like coincidences happen more often than not? It seems to work along the lines of murphy's law: "If something can go wrong it will go wrong." It seems like if a coincidence can happen, than it will happen. Flashlight batteries work when you are playing with them, but when you need them the batteries are gone or your roomate stole them. I went to blockbuster to rent a movie yesterday. It was an old movie and I doubt anybody has rented it in 10 years. But the day I want to rent it somebody else grabs it first. Or I'll be thinking about something driving in my car and all the sudden a song plays on the radio about the exact thing I was thinking about. Have you ever had a song stuck in your head and later you notice the person sitting next to you is humming the exact same song. I hope some independently wealthy idiot comes across my blog and funds some reseach on the topic. I'd be interested to hear the results.

Anyway, what I'm thinking about now is that I sometimes lay down and worry. Well more along the lines of regret than worry. I hesitate to say regret. I don't want to sound like those stupid guys who relive their glory days of highschool football and can't get back into reality. I detest those guys. Still sometimes I feel like things in my life didn't change for the better. My life has not turned out how I planned. I'm happy with my life but I often can't help but think it would have been better if it had gone how I had always wanted it to go. It is dangerous to lie down and think about it because I get up 3 hours later and realize how much time I wasted and feel even worse. Is this normal? It probably is. Isn't it...?